I did some serious thinking today about life.
Actually that’s all I seem to be doing lately… Maybe my train of thought is due to this mid-twenties phase I’m in, or perhaps it’s a side-effect of having been diagnosed with cancer this year and facing some of life’s most difficult hurdles all at once - Or maybe I’m just a worry-wart! All three? …okay, you’re right.
While I pondered, I questioned my dreams, my identity and the meaning of this time I’m allotted on Earth. Not in a judgmental way, but in a gentle, curious manner… I noticed a pattern.
I tend to feel this resistance and aggravation while working towards my goals. Day-to-day, my thoughts and words trace a common theme:
"I should be doing more, I should be trying harder, I should be further along, I should be self-sufficient…" etc.
Well, in the loving words of my best friend, “Stop ‘should-ing’ on yourself!’
Truth be told, I feel like I’m over my eyeballs with being a one-woman-show: booking gigs, coordinating bandmates, scheduling rehearsals, promoting shows, writing the music, producing, recording, lugging equipment, applying to contests, networking, managing all aspects of my career… and the list goes on and on… This is a common affliction for independent artists, who start off their careers solo, without the help of a record label. (God knows what I’d do without my family’s support!)
I ask myself, is this possible to sustain? Am I cut out for this?
Eventually, I came to a meaningful conclusion, which I will state in short - I am enough. (And I don’t need to do this alone)
One of my flaws is not knowing how/when to ask for help OR how to accept it gracefully. I suspect I am not alone in this. It’s so hard to accept help - at least that’s what I’ve learned throughout a year of painful physical and emotional challenges, feeling like I was a burden on my caregivers… but I was mistaken.
Nothing I’ve accomplished has been done alone. The evidence is everywhere… In this picture (above) I may look like I’m alone, but behind the camera lens are fellow high school alumni who offered to shoot this music video on a shoe-string budget so we could all expand our portfolios and have a learning experience. My mom provided the catering. My best friend and her sister helped me with the dress & makeup. It was a team that made this video appear where there used to be nothing! I have much to be grateful for…
Meaningful conclusion #2: Accepting another’s help, is giving them a gift. Genuinely asking for help is a lesson in humility. Life is a give & take. And while you’re receiving help, don’t disregard the support you provide others!
So what does this mean? I don’t have to carry the whole world on my shoulders - starting now… NOW!
I’m asking for your help…
I dream of creating meaningful music & art to share with others, far & wide. Music has a way of understanding me… thus, I aspire to make others feel understood, too. I want the world to feel less lonely for someone. I want to share my story as a survivor and spread awareness through the medium of songs and paintings. I want to spread positive messages. I want to challenge the status-quo….
To do this, I need to build a Street Team. In the spirit of Puzzle Heart, I am seeking pieces of the puzzle… I hope you’ll be a part of this journey with me!
What is a Street Team?? According to Indie-Music.com, “A street team is a group of devoted fans and volunteers that work together to spread the word about their favorite music or artist. A street team tries to increase a band or artist’s presence in a local community and on the Internet…posting flyers at local hangouts, creating a buzz on the Internet, and sending emails to friends and family. In short, they increase an artist’s visibility.”
Tonight I am founding the “Erica Leigh Street Team” headquarters, located on the Erica Leigh Fan Page, where I enjoy giving out free music & art every week to my fans, engage in meaningful conversations, deliver the latest news/photos, announce upcoming events, and harness group-energy to spread positive messages. I will record and share exclusive tracks for you, share behind-the-scenes photos, funny stories from on the road, and truthful confessions I don’t share anywhere else… AKA: a give and take.
This is where I have a chance to get to know you, too… Poll the group about what songs you want to hear next, what art you want to see, where you want me to book a show next, hear about your interpretations of songs and art, discover what moves you…etc.
Here’s one of my weekly pieces of original art, I call Saturdoodles!
Want to join? It’s easy. Here is your first assignment:
STREET TEAM TASK #1:'Like' the Erica Leigh Fan Page.
STREET TEAM TASK #2: Invite your friends to my biggest show to date! THIS THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 7TH! All the info you need is here at this link!
Alas, I am going to go ask my cozy bed for help ;-) …to comfort my tired body, after a lot of deep pondering! Thank you for reading, and for being a part of this journey! I can’t do it without you :)
Much Love to my Street-Teamers, If you read this far, this is a special treat for you, a thank you…